Insomnia

Here are the thoughts that are consuming my brain and I share them in the hopes that I can finally be able to sleep after writing them down. I need my sleep.

Why am I hungry right now?

Should I eat?

If I eat, then I might need to use the restroom later and I rather sleep longer than eat.

I heard Scarlett cough a moment ago. I hope she’s not getting sick.

I need to get more Vick’s strips for the humidifier.

I need to get a second humidifier in case Emma and the twins are sick at the same time.

We have three thanksgivings this week. I need to ask what to bring for each dinner. Text them tomorrow. I hope they say pie or cider. Something easy and doesn’t involve cooking.

I need to balance my checkbook.

Do I have enough to get some formula tomorrow? Probably not.

Why are people mean? Even at my age and older, there are still people who purposely do mean things. Why?

I dislike bullying. What else can I do to address that with my students. How can I make a certain student of mine feel like there is a day without bullying?

I need to check times for Frozen 2. I can’t wait to see Emma’s reaction to the movie. I definitely need to go to Riverbank Galaxy again.

I need to update my calendar for December.

I haven’t started shopping for anyone. I hope Amazon has great deals for Black Friday to save some money.

Violet is not eating the same like Scarlett. I hope this doesn’t affect her weight progress for her next surgery.

Ugh. Her next surgery. I am not ready for that. I don’t know how I’ll be able to hand her over again to the nurse.

I need to make sure to bring her blanket this time around or her favorite toy.

Scarlett started crawling today. I need to get more baby gates out. I need to check Emma’s toys and put away anything too small in case Scar gets to it and chokes. I got to do that first thing in the morning.

When will Violet crawl? She has no interest in that at all. I hope that’s not a bad thing.

My throat has been itchy all day. Please God, keep me healthy.

Today was a good day with Emma. She didn’t throw any tantrums. Kevin and I must have given her just enough attention.

I miss when it was just Emma. I have to try harder and pay more attention to her. I don’t want her to think that she’s second/third in our list. I hope tomorrow is the same as today or better.

I love it when she comes to me and hugs me and says “my mommy”. It truly does change my day from dark to light.

I need to talk to Emma about farting in front of people that’s not our immediate family.

I need to text my brother and sister tomorrow. Check in on them. I can’t wait to see them on Friday.

I just want to sleep.

I hope this helps.

With love,
Ale