31 Weeks!

My last post was in December!? Every month since then I've been telling myself I'd like to write another post on my blog and then the month would fly on by. This might sound crazy, but does time speed up when you're a parent because it sure feels like it. Emma turned 31 weeks on Monday! 7 months went by in a blink of an eye.

I'd like to share some things that I love about being a mom, as well as a few hardships I experienced. I loved the newborn stage. Kevin was not a fan though. He would actually fast forward to Emma being a "small adult" as he would say if he could. If it were up to me, I would rewind time to when she was a newborn again. I feel like that phase goes by way too quickly. I loved how my chest was pretty much her nap-time or bed-time spot. I loved how I would lay her on my upper thighs facing me and she would observe her surroundings while making those adorable newborn sounds. I loved the way she would smell. Newborn smell is probably one of my favorite scents on this planet. I miss the newborn stage so much. That is why Kevin and I are planning on doing this again, so I can experience it once more (not any time soon guys, so calm your horses). 

Emma started to smile days before she hit her one month mark. She obviously didn't know it at first, but then I think she started to smile purposely because of the reaction she would get from us every time. Her smile and laughter are one of my favorite moments to witness. Our family and friends say that she has my smile. Good! Because everything else she has is Kevin's. Strangers always ask in amazement "She's your daughter!?" and "But she looks nothing like you!". Thanks, people. I'd like to think that Emma has very similar personality traits as I do. She isn't shy, super happy (even when she's sick), observant, laughs a lot, extremely sociable. When you start to get to know her, you'll know right away that she is in fact my daughter. I love saying that phrase. I still have moments where I am still in disbelief that I am a mom. I don't cry AS MUCH anymore, I'm feeling better when it comes to that. 

Baby blues. They hit you hard. It's not affecting me as much anymore, but there were days where I felt like I was the worst mom in the world. I would feel this overwhelming feeling of sadness which partly was from the extreme exhaustion which lead to being frustrated. It's an awful feeling. Thank goodness I had Kevin and my family to make me feel grounded again and to reassure me that I was doing as well as any other first time mom should. My parents. God bless them. My parents came to visit me every weekend to help us with Emma, allowing me to rest, and to show me the ways. I didn't mind. My siblings and I turned out alright, so they know what they're doing. My in-laws are a great help as well. They love on Emma like no other. Kevin and I are so fortunate to have such supportive families. 

At two and half months, Emma began to laugh and it is my favorite sound in the whole wide world. All my worries and stressors of the day/week/month/year instantly vanish whenever I hear that sound. At three months, she started to make more sounds and paying close attention to our face expressions or people in general. By four months, she was babbling. She was giving and receiving affection. She would lay her head on my chest or put both her hands on my cheeks and message them the "Emma way" which is a little aggressive. She loves hard ( You see? Totally my daughter). There was never a moment where she didn't have her hands in her mouth. At five months, we started to see more and more of her personality develop. She definitely has a lot of silliness to her and we can tell right away what she is thinking just by looking at her face expressions. At six months, Emma started eating solids. She loves fruits more than vegetables. She found her first love with Jesse from Toy Story 2 and she learned how to give "besos". They're super slobbery, I LOVE THEM. 

She is now 7 months and teething. Teething sucks. I hate that she is feeling what she is feeling and there is not much that we can do to relieve her pain. It's temporary and I pray those little teeth appear soon! Every night we have a dance party before and/or after bath time and that girl has my rhythm (thank you God!). She loves her Disney songs and anything with a beat. She is actually starting to move her legs to the music or bop her head. She is starting to say "MA..MA..MA..MA" and "DA...DA..DA..DA" but she doesn't say them to call on us. I think she hears me say them a lot, so she is mimicking me as she plays with her toys. The weekends are my ultimate favorite with her because we get to spend the whole day with her. The weekdays are too short. By the time we get home from work/daycare we have about 2 hours together (at best) to spend time as a family before starting her bedtime routine. Also, we watch Toy Story 2 about two to three times a week and she loves her BabyFirst Channel. I love it too. It's the only channel I let her watch on TV because it's full of music and educational shows. I think I know every song for every show.

Time is a thief. I can't believe she is 5 months away from turning a year. Knowing me my next post will be after her birthday. I will try to post again before then but no promises. Motherhood is such a hectic and chaotic life, but I wouldn't trade it for anything. I was born to live this life. I was so ready to be a mom and he might not believe me, but Kevin was ready to be a dad. He is a different man with our Emma. I fell into a deeper love with my husband ever since I saw him lock eyes with her.

Here is a picture of our girl. God's greatest gift.


Good night.

With love,
Ale